Robin Williams

I'm devastated at the tragic death of Robin Williams.   However,  I am grateful in so many ways.  I've seen testimonials of depression, addiction, and imperfection posted on social media sites all day.    Robin's comedy entertained us with Read more

What's a probiotic?

    PROBIOTICS What the H$%* are they and why do we need them?  I'm going to give you my own dumbed-down skinny on what they are and exactly how they can help us get healthier. First, every organism on the planet is Read more

What Supplements Should I Take?

Many of you have been in for your annual physical this last year and have been instructed to start the following supplements.  You also got a boatload of homework assignments and reading material about healthy eating.  (Sorry about that--I Read more

Gluten Free Tips from Superhero Sandy

    Here are some more great tips from our very own Superhero Sandy that is the gluten-free goddess Just a little FYI for those following along---here is a quick recap---Sandy sufferers from Hashimoto's Thyroiditis. She has followed my recommendations of going Gluten-free Read more

Local Grown Ingredients

It's funny that people will spend $5.00 on a Starbucks drink but have trouble with the expense of buying organic veggies and fruits.  I was certainly an offender back in the day and I absolutely said --"It's too expensive Read more

Holy Moly that Basil is Healthy!

It's finally time to plant annuals outdoors! Shop at farmers markets and grocery stores to find many herb and vegetable plants. I bought the potted basil plants pictured below for only $2.99 at Trader Joe's. I'll separate and transplant Read more

Gluten-free on the run!

Superhero Sandy has been so kind to share more of her journey with us!!! My kudos go out to her for sticking to this journey!! It certainly isn't easy!  Of note--she is already feeling better!!!  She has more energy Read more

Natural Insect Repellents

Well summer is finally here and we are forced to deal with those pesky mosquitos!  My six-year-old gets extreme swelling and pain when she is bitten so I've been doing my homework on how to protect her without using Read more

“Don’t judge me for my past, I don’t live there anymore”

My wake up call came last February.  I woke up in the middle of the night with my mind spinning in panic and impending doom.  I may have been in the throes of the annual seasonal depression that many Midwesterners succumb to after months with little sunlight. Perhaps there were other forces at work that we currently don’t understand; nevertheless, the depression was debilitating.  My husband and four beautiful healthy daughters were fast asleep in our perfectly cliché large suburban home that was way beyond our means.   I looked in the mirror to find, staring back at me a puffy eyed, spiritless, sagging façade.  Beauty, intelligence, professional success, marriage, kids and health weren’t enough to make me sincerely happy. What was wrong with me?  Was I psychotic, schizophrenic, or insane?   There seemed to be no point in living.   All the things I had aspired to be were just delusions.

 

“I was scared to be myself”

 Looking back now, I see the next few months served my “Dark Times” or my “dark night of the soul” as the 16th-century Spanish mystic St. John of the Cross referred to times like this.  A pattern of self destruction ensued luring me to hide from everyone that I thought loved me in my unconscious fear that they would realize that I was an absolute train wreck.  My epiphany came while seeking refuge from life and hiding at a local Starbucks, “I was scared to be myself”.  I was scared if I didn’t portray myself as the perfect person I was expected to be, people might not love me.  I didn’t even love me.  I’m not perfect at all! I was miserably digging a path to my grave before I was dead.

 

I vowed to change.  I ran off to counseling seeking a quick fix which yielded no explanations, rules or outlines on how to love myself and be happy.  I was simply going to have to let go of the person I thought I was supposed to be, and slowly work at being who I really was.  And you know it’s been hard, because I’m still afraid that they won’t love me.  But this blog is a start.  Come on the journey with me.

My Wellness concept:

… “accepting the things I cannot change and having the courage to change the things I can.”

Warning! This blog is about being real and honest.  You may read things that you don’t want to hear and never wanted to know.  This is one middle aged mother of four, wife, and physician’s attempt at “accepting the things I cannot change and having the courage to change the things I can.”  I want to make a difference in patient’s lives and what I have been doing isn’t working.  My concept is preventing disease.  Every year my patients come in for their annual exams and I hear myself sounding like a broken record.  “Work on diet and exercise.”  The next year they come back just as unhealthy as the year before.  What can I do to walk them through the process of owning the responsibility for their own health?  I can hold their hands and communicate regularly.  I can also be honest about how hard it is to change yourself and the trouble that I have doing it. This blog is for all of us, all who seek change in whatever area, and trying to figure out the best way to tackle our demons head on. 

“The best way to change the world is to change ourselves.”

We can work together to figure out why we expect doctors to “treat and cure” us of the diseases we self inflict.  The best way to change the world is to change ourselves.  This is my chaotic and humble attempt to contribute to that process