So I had a bad day! The chips are open in the break room and the drug rep just brought frozen yogurt—-I want to eat all of it! Then, I want to go to Taco Bell on the way home and get nachos; topping it off with a candy bar. My salad with garbanzo beans, tomatoes, cucumbers, and olives just doesn’t cut it! I’m sitting here thinking this when it dawned on me—I’m not hungry! I don’t want to eat, I want to cry! I am making a catastrophe out of all the things in my life that I have no control over. I’ve taken one small piece of bad news and turned into the apocalypse within minutes. The downward spiral of thoughts in my head has overwhelmed the senses of my body. There are things in my life and world that are out of my control: they make me anxious and paranoid. I can’t accept these things I cannot change. But, do I have a choice? Not really. I can accept them or abuse my body pretending that I can change things. Ultimately, the only thing I change is myself for the worse if I make that choice. How self-defeating is that? So I’m going to turn on some sad music –CRY– and then take a deep breath and make the most of what I’m grateful for today. Today has been awful, but tomorrow will be better! If Alexander moves to Australia—I’m going with him.
I’m having that MONTH right now! Thanks for the reminder!
Can you believe it Valerie—I wrote this as a self therapy and it worked. I actually had a great day yesterday—As they say, your day will go the direction the corners of your mouth turn.